The Olympics does have some good effects though, for example I now seem to think I’m Canadian which is amusing I find my self saying “OMG I hope we win”, we? when did I become Canadian and how do I feel I am contributing enough to any team to consider the success of athletes even partially mine. I mean I don’t watch the Grammys and hope “we” win best album even though I have listened to Lady GaGa’s album like it is some sort of religious ritual. I also love the freedom it gives me to pretend I get sports suddenly using every hockey term I have overhead and praying I used them at a reasonable time, the downside is when the person your watching it with does understand sports and replies…. luckily there is a phrase for just this moment “Totally…GO CANADA”, works every time or in case of emergency say anything anti-USA but not about 911 because then you hit a “too soon” moment.

To sum up: Eat Junk, Watch TV and Revel in the reflected glory of others

Jessie: We all hurt…

Alexa: Is that supposed to console me? Like somehow if the world hurts it will somehow ease my pain?

Jessie: Yes, it’s supposed to help you feel less alone

Alexa: *In Disbelief* We’re all alone, there is no such thing as less alone

-Children laugh and shriek-

Alexa: I miss you more everyday, I look for our star in the sky so I know we are looking up to the same space…. *sigh* but I see none, not one star

Jessie: *Calling in the distance* Alexa! Alexa! Quickly!

Again, I’m the one they all run from
Diatribes of clouded sun
Someone help me find the pause button

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren’t my own
Wreaking havoc

I’m too exhausting to be loved
A volatile chemical
Best to quarantine and cut off

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren’t my own
Wreaking havoc

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren’t my own
Wreaking havoc

I’m a thorn in your sweet side
You are better off without me
It’d be best to leave at once

All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren’t my own
Wreaking havoc

Jessie: *Looking Puzzled* Bad things?

Alexa: Yeah…. I mean did I cause this?

Jessie: This is life sweetie, life is always going in the right direction….. sadly it just doesn’t always take the most direct route.

Alexa: Do you think she will be back?

Jessie: ………..No *Long Pause* … No I don’t

1. Surrounding myself with good people
2. laughing and smiling a lot
3. getting more done
4. feeling good about who i am
5. being more positive

So there it is, my goal list. I didn’t set any like concrete goals because honestly this yeah I am just here to enjoy the ride If I could give some advice it would be;

1. don’t sweat the small stuff
2. tell people how you feel
3. be true to who you are
4. don’t worry about impressing anyone but you

and maybe most importantly LOVE,  Love like you have never been hurt and allow yourself to be at risk because if you don’t your not reall playin the game

BEKIBEX

XXX

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night, we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

And I’ll never love again,
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half-wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
All of my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love so baby
Raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

And I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

H-ooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

H-ooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise boy to you

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along
I’ll never love again

H-ooow?

So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh ohhhh

So why, why do I love this movie so much? Because it is raw and honest and cuts to the bone. David Kepesh reminds me so much of who I could become, who I was…am perhaps. He moves from woman to woman trying to run away from growing up and eventually he finds out that the years pass whether you wish to acknowledge them or not. Time doesn’t care if we try to live young, it doesn’t discriminate. The long list of magnificent quotes in this movie which rings so true are just amazing. The end reminds us that everyday we get is one we shouldn’t take lightly, love comes and love goes just as we do, You never know, you just never know if tomorrow will be the first of many or the last of few. I try to live my life the best way I can but we all make mistakes and we all have fears and like Kepesh I find myself scared of growing up, of surrendering to what is expected but at the same time wanting that love and companionship in my life.

Every year my birthdays feel closer and closer together and the months seem to fly by. I think it gets scary at this age because your just old enough to realize that you…. yes YOU are going to die…. it’s not optional, it is. Sometimes I find myself taken back by that truth, I wonder how it will feel and if I will regret. I wonder if I would be missed, I wonder who I will miss. This movie is the most honest depiction of this painful truth because he did everything you could and lived a wonderful life and in the end, his friends, his love…. it will all be gone and there is nothing that can be done to stop it.

Ok so I watched Funny people, Just so you know I love everyone who was in it so this may be a little biased. I also have the sense of humor of a pre-pubescent boy so penis jokes crack me up. That said this movie was kinda good and really bad at the same time. In parts it was hilarious (Ref the comment about penis jokes) and in other parts it was just uber lame… like the ending which was BULLSHIT!! But maybe thats just me I love a happy ending where love conquers all and this, this is not that movie. However if you like me still think penis jokes are funny im sure you will get at least a few laughs out of it and maybe you will like the ending…. maybe you suck lol… i don’t know you…. but if you like the ending that does mean you are kind of dead to me… no I still love you… anyways point was not a bad watch but not one i will be rushing the local Walmart to get on DVD either.